Change

...And oh as I fade away,

they'll all look at me and say,

Hey look at him! I'll never live that way.

But that's okay they're just afraid to change.

When you feel your life ain't worth living

you've got to stand up and take a look around you

then a look way up to the sky.

And when your deepest thoughts are broken,

keep on dreaming boy, cause when you stop dreamin' it's time to die.

And as we all play parts of tomorrow,

some ways will work and other ways we'll play.

But I know we all can't stay here forever,

so I'll write my words on the face of today...

-- Change, Blind Melon

It's amazing how you don't realise that you've changed over a long period of time. I went back and read some of my old blogs. I can see how far God's brought me. Some of the things I said and did in the past are things I couldn't say or do today. I've got one focus and one goal-- I'm sure those of you who know me are well aware. ;) I feel like I'm such a different person and initially was ashamed of my past behavior.. but it's part of my God-given story.. so I learn from it, move forward and my eyes turn to the heavens!

I muddled my way through some bad choices and silly habits across Canada.. I suffered, I wrestled as I learned who I was as a daughter of Tha Most Highhhhhh... and now I dance and embrace this new adventure because better is one day in [his house] than thousands elsewhere.

I can appreciate that the many of you (friends from home who read what i've written on a regular basis) aren't Christians... And I know some of you aren't quite sure what I'm on about half the time.. So for that I'm sorry... But I love you, and you know I can't lie to you or hide-- God's always on my mind and he continually amazes me beyond belief. I pray He blesses you, and that you feel His love and that He would take you on wild and crazy adventures.