"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell." -- Edna St Vincent Millay
Joe left today for a youth retreat. He's a youth pastor so I guess that's what happens, right? I left him at home as I drove to school today knowing that he wouldn't be there when I got home. Even though I wasn't consciously sad about it something felt different as I drove away. Even though I am happy to have an evening to myself I feel different. It leads me to think that there is actually something to this "one in spirit" stuff... They said it at our wedding-- "two become one" and I thought it was a lovely idea but I never thought of it literally until now. I'm here at home... it's12:25am and even though I'm content to be here on my own, I feel like part of me is missing-- something integral to my existence is absent.
I think I miss him.
2 comments:
I am never content to be without Mat. When I come home to an empty house it eats away at me, and the silence just reminds me of how little joy I have in being solitary.
But the silence that sometimes exists when we are home, together, doing our own things just a few feet away from each other - is a silence filled with joy and a million glances in each others direction filling the space between us with love.
PS- when you coming to visit?
LOL
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